When I was pregnant with Elliott, I wanted to do up his room all fancy, make it bright, colorful and unique. So I did! Now I am pregnant with a little girl, and I have an extra bedroom waiting to be done up all fancy for her. The idea of the work needed to put into this projects makes me nauseous.
When I was pregnant with Elliott I wanted to breastfeed exclusively. I was open to formula as a supplement when absolutely neccesary but only as a last resort. My cardiac baby had other thoughts, and now we exclusively formula feed.
When I was pregnant with Elliott I wanted to cloth diaper exclusively. We currently cloth diaper exclusively at home during the day, but sometimes, we use disposable diapers. I’d say it’s almost 50/50.
When I was pregnant with Elliott I wanted to make all of his food. Puree everything and keep him on a strict diet. Today, Elliott is 10 months old and I rarely make any of his food, most of it is store-bought.
When I was pregnant with Elliott, I knew I did not want to go into co-sleeping territory. I felt it did not set up a child for independence. Well, life surprised us and we found out we had a cardiac baby on our hands when he was eight weeks old. We co-slept for three months.
When entering into motherhood, I naively felt strongly about things and was convinced I would never deviate these plans. But more and more I am learning the flexibility is a good mamahood skill to have, more than anything. Compassion, patience, and flexibility.
When I was pregnant with Elliott, I didn’t know what it was like to be a mom. I had no idea what lay ahead for me as his mama. I still don’t. Now, I am the mother of two, and it’s everything I ever wanted.